“I think I fall in a place where I feel more confident in myself as a person,” she said.
“I feel like every time I’m able to be more myself in the world and have it reflected back to me that that’s what’s been received, I think that I shed skin of trauma for myself from the older days.”
Jamil noted that because the scandal unfolded before the age of social media, Lewinsky did not have the opportunity to shape the narrative or offer an “immediate rebuttal”.
Lewinsky said “I still live in a lot of fear”, revealing she was often anxious that an “earthquake” could undo the emotional work she had done in the years since, “and I’ll somehow find myself without purpose or, you know, without an income”.
She said she worries she could be left without purpose or a livelihood.
“I think it’s just trying to hold on to what’s now and not what was.”

Reclaiming with Monica Lewinsky, which launched early last year, sees Lewinsky interview guests such as Malala Yousafzai and Miley Cyrus on themes of restoring control of one’s narrative.
The podcast also marks an important point in her own long-running effort to reclaim her story, since re-emerging as an anti-bullying advocate in recent years.
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